Mario de Andrade's novel "Macunaíma" depicts a hero without a character," born in the Brazilian jungle and possessing strange and remarkable abilities (Mostly Shapeshifting), as he travels to São Paulo and back again. I do feel like enabled with such abilities at times and often find myself identified with the creative laziness that is inherent to our people. On top of that I am sure I was way lazier while still living in the Tropics.
Sometimes, I take a minute to think about how I would spend a whole day (back in college times) and I feel so secretly embarrassed, particularly when I recollect all those hangovers. Few things were productive and daydreaming was perhaps the most propelling asset at that time...I also read a lot but that just added to the chaotic dynamics of thoughts. Rarely, I can find something funny or truly darling to me.
I look myself at the mirror and see the face of a decent man. A father, married to an Slavic beauty with a Brain. I have an interesting job that is getting better by the day. Why I could only achieve this things here?
Last time I've been to my home-country it was attend my father's funeral. I could not make it on time. The trip was far too long. It was scorching hot; everything so colorful.
I lacked the willingness to grow; I had nothing to bring my spirit up. And I cannot blame the Tropics for that. I met lots of people I should not, I used to sleep far too much, my efforts were minimum and I would waste a lot of time seeking a bohemian identity I have never entirely owned. It was enough to make people believe I was a hero without a character.I was not afraid of changes though. When I've decided to "hit the road", I could only rely on my shapeshifting skills; and they were genuine.
I have to admit that this has been by far the most turbulent and exciting year of my life and I feel I can go on without those ghosts from my lazy times. I seek for stories for life and feel inspired by those who have successfully managed to overcome difficulties thus developing their character, being honest with oneself.
Life is now rewarding, with ideas and good prospects, permeated with simple pleasures that were otherwise invisible. Indeed, not only pleasure leads to satisfaction. It takes a good deal of shapeshifting to get a taste.
People are more creative while in pleasure times and good stories are everywhere.
A good practice is to explore your dead time to read and perform tasks that do not require a lot of thinking.
Ideas can simply pop out in the less expected moments.
Sometimes, I take a minute to think about how I would spend a whole day (back in college times) and I feel so secretly embarrassed, particularly when I recollect all those hangovers. Few things were productive and daydreaming was perhaps the most propelling asset at that time...I also read a lot but that just added to the chaotic dynamics of thoughts. Rarely, I can find something funny or truly darling to me.
I look myself at the mirror and see the face of a decent man. A father, married to an Slavic beauty with a Brain. I have an interesting job that is getting better by the day. Why I could only achieve this things here?
Last time I've been to my home-country it was attend my father's funeral. I could not make it on time. The trip was far too long. It was scorching hot; everything so colorful.
I lacked the willingness to grow; I had nothing to bring my spirit up. And I cannot blame the Tropics for that. I met lots of people I should not, I used to sleep far too much, my efforts were minimum and I would waste a lot of time seeking a bohemian identity I have never entirely owned. It was enough to make people believe I was a hero without a character.I was not afraid of changes though. When I've decided to "hit the road", I could only rely on my shapeshifting skills; and they were genuine.
I have to admit that this has been by far the most turbulent and exciting year of my life and I feel I can go on without those ghosts from my lazy times. I seek for stories for life and feel inspired by those who have successfully managed to overcome difficulties thus developing their character, being honest with oneself.
Life is now rewarding, with ideas and good prospects, permeated with simple pleasures that were otherwise invisible. Indeed, not only pleasure leads to satisfaction. It takes a good deal of shapeshifting to get a taste.
People are more creative while in pleasure times and good stories are everywhere.
A good practice is to explore your dead time to read and perform tasks that do not require a lot of thinking.
Ideas can simply pop out in the less expected moments.
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